Grief

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Oh.. my head hurts.. no not only my head, everything hurts. I dont want to open my eyes, its peaceful like this. Who is that talking ? is it mom ???

 

"What do you mean by you dont know doctor, she has been like this from yesterday, whats wrong with her??"

 

"I am sorry Mrs.Sharma, but physically there is nothing wrong with her, as i said she is under mental shock"

 

Shock??? what are they talking about ?? and about whom??? Oh my head hurts, no, my everything hurts, i dont want to hear anymore, too much of noise. I will just close my eyes now.  But I never opened them, did I??

 

Its so dark in here, so cold, if only i could find a warm corner, i will just sleep for some time. But where am I?? Didnt i just hear mom talking with somebody??

 

Oh i dont care, i want to sleep now thats all. There, now i feel good, i will just sleep ........

 

"Anu, Anu, sweetie please get up, ... Anu"

 

Oh who is that calling me now?? Didnt I just sleep now, why is everybody disturbing me...

 

Anu... Oh dear, what will i do, its been 3 days and she hasnt even stirred....

 

Mom?? what is she talking about... Where is this place, its so dark, I cant see anything here.

Why am i here?? Oh my body hurts, actually no only my chest hurts and my head, oh my legs feel like lead..

 

Am i trapped somewhere??? Where is this place.. Didnt I hear mom just now. Why cant i hear her now?? There is not even a beam of light here. How did i even get here, Oh my head is splitting, I cant remember anything. Wait something had happened isnt it.. What is it? Oh the pain i cant bear it anymore, I need to rest somemore, I will just crawl up here.

 

"Anu, Anu, can you hear me. If you can, just press my hand."

"She is definetely in a shock Mrs. Sharma"

"Is she is some kind of coma??"

"Well lets say that when a person cant handle something, the mind finds a way to do it, and in case of Anu, she is like in a self induced coma, her mind has found this way to save her from the trauma, its self defense"

"Oh is she ever going to be alright"

"Hard to say Mrs. Sharma, lets not lose hope"

 

Who is that talking? Why cant people just leave me alone?  I just want to be here, its very peaceful here... But why am i here?? Why did i come here?? and How did i come here?? Where is this "Here"?? Ah so many questions, wait i was remembering something, what had happened, I think I slept for too long, I will just get up now, I have so much to do today....

 

Today?? by the way what day is it?? Monday?? no no, i remember the meeting i attended on monday. Wednesday?? ah maybe, but i dont know. Oh I have that important presentation on Wednesday afternoon. Isnt it?? Why cant i remember anything properly. I think I better get up. But my head, why is it hurting so much. Whatever, i will just ask mom to make me her special masala tea, it will help me.

 

Oh my eyes are feeling so heavy, like there are weights on my eyelids.

 

"Anu, Anu, sweetie, can you hear me, come on dear, ...

"Ah..."

"Oh, Anu, i was so worried, i was so worried. Wait let me call the doctor... Champa sit with anu, i will come in seconds"

 

Ah... What is this, Why am  I lying like this, Why are all these needles sticking in my arm. Was i sick or something?? Oh my throat feels so sore, like i havent talked in days now. Why is mom calling the doctor?? Ah i cant even think anymore.

 

"Anu, Anu dont drift off again, dont you quit on me again, the doctor will be here any minute sweetheart.

 

Anu smiles and looks at her mom like seeing her after a long time.

 

Something is changed, something is  missing, but what???

 

 

"Doctor, Anu has opened her eyes, she smiled at me, Oh please check her and tell me i got my daughter back."

 

"Relax Mrs.Sharma, she is awake and smiled, which is a good sign. Anu, Hi am Dr. Stephan, how are you feeling now??"

 

Anu clears her throat but still cant speak properly, in a low voice she tries talking...

 

"I dont know doctor, my head hurts, and i am feeling very tired"

 

Dr.Stephan smiles, "but you are awake and talking, thats good, now i will just do some routine tests, please bear with me"

 

After checking that Anu's vital signs and body functions are normal, Dr.Stephan leaves, giving Mrs.Sharma a warning "Let her take it slow"

 

Two days after this, Anu recovers enough for the questions to return to her mind. And finally asks her mother.

 

"Mom, what happened?? Why am i like this.. and most of all where is dad???

 

With a surprised look Mrs. Sharma asks her only daughter "Anu, sweetie dont you remember anything???"

 

"Remember what mom??"

 

"The phone call, the accident, about dad??"

 

"What are you............ Oh no, oh no no no no...."

 

All the images comes back swirling in her mind.....

 

On Tuesday evening, She got a phone call that her dad met with an accident while driving back home. After that, oh after that she had rushed to the hospital only to discover that he expired just minutes before she arrived, she didnt even get a chance to say good bye. After that, all the images were blurry, she vaguely remembered the funeral, she remembered sitting alone in a corner, not shedding a single drop of tear, and people, lots of people around her talking something.

 

After that ??? She looked at her mom's face, tears streaming down her face.

 

"You lost consiciousness just after the funeral, you were in shock, maybe thats why you didnt cry at all and when your mind couldnt handle the grief, you went into like a self induced coma for a whole week" "I thought i lost everything, first your dad, and then you"

 

Anu hugs her mom and bursts out crying....

 

Just then Dr.Stephan enters and sees the two women sharing grief and thinks to himself, "now, everything is going to be fine" and smiles.