Random madness

"Nobody ever thought to explain how I will feel when I fall in love. Or maybe it is different for everybody!!! I wonder...  I have loved people, my family, my friends, one of my ex-girlfriend, that first crush in school. But never felt this gut wrenching feeling of possession towards anybody.  When did this happen?? How did this happen?? I never planned to fall in love with her, I doubt she ever tried to make me fall in love either.  I wonder...Did I fall in love the first time I saw her under that tree in the busy street!! Or was it when she smiled at me in that all-knowing-woman smile Maybe it was the first time when she hugged me, felt like all soft and tenderness was wrapped up and was gifted to me.  Or was it the first time she took care when I was ill, so much care and worry creased her face that I wanted to get well faster just so I can smooth out the lines on her forehead. And then I wonder again... I cant discount the first kiss, when thos...