Skip to main content

The world as I understood.....

I was always a dog-person, never feared dogs and never cringed from them at first contact. But then I had dog as a pet, as a companion. I was sure I can understand dogs, because I understood my dog. But now the dog is gone not only from my life but also from my person and I have turned to just a "person" from "dog person".

Until I thought I understood dogs, I understood them. But now when I am not very sure I can understand them, then lo behold, I can't understand them.

There are many instances in my life when I couldn't understand things just because I thought I can't understand it. When I was in school, I understood mathematics fairly. After all, in my eyes, my brother and father were geniuses on earth who always got more than 95% in mathematics. Surely, at least by mistake I could have got a fraction of their DNA and I can understand Math.  So with this courage I entered my first PUC (Science), opened the new Mathematics textbook and then... I went blank...What the @&$$*# is this!!!!!! ...... I closed the book and said, I cant understand it. And even today I don't understand how I sailed through PUC mathematics. 

Well now am not that naive to think that just because I thought I don't understand, I couldn't understand. Because I am smart enough to know that I went through math all my high school on a strong belief that I can do it.

Am smart enough to know that until I have the belief that I can understand, I will understand at least a fraction of it. It is not only about a subject or dog, there were people around me about whom I was sure I could never understand them. But eventually I understood that people are not meant to be understood. People are to be read like a book, every time you read it you can understand a whole new level of it. But the line draws on the day I say I can't understand, at that moment I would have closed all the available ways to understand.

As it is said "You MAY lose a battle if you fight, But will be definitely lose a battle if you dont fight". Likewise, I may never understand a person, work or anything even after trying, But I will never understand anything if I dont even try.

The world as I understood, is still full of surprises and miracles. I figure out (or I think I do) one thing and another springs up with "Surprise" written all over it. And at the end of the day, it might just seem that I haven't learned anything today, that’s when I place my hope and belief on the next day and eagerly wait for the sunrise, so that I can start over once again.


  1. Legend says is dog is a most faithful animal to the mankind..or rather best friend of human being. Yes it is also the confidence level in ourselves is also a best friend without whom we can not live or alive!!!

    When we show affection to wags its tile, when we keep confidence in our confidence...then that also just pushes to take the challenges head on.

    What a way to summarise the importance of looking at the world with wide we can expand our horizon of knowledge.

    Always i envy your thoughts rolling down from your article is just like a snow ball starts slowly in a small magnitude but at the end of the article..the reader will have in full.

    Super stuff nivi.. personally i liked it very much.. Take the challenges head-on..your head will be on always..that is the take from this beautiful writeup!!!


Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

IMHO - Blue mug epiphany

I have often heard, "our relationship is solid".. "Its so tight that it is impossible to break it" .. always made me wonder, "Really! solid? unbreakable???". And when I saw people being disappointed or hurt because something changed in the relationship, it made me question it. I know when we say solid, we relate it to strength and dependability of the relationship. Which makes us feel secure, safe. That this is one thing we can always count on. 
I accepted the premise and walked in the same road, but always wondered. You will ask why!.. because we human beings are dynamic, not static.. not stationary. Every moment of our life adds to the vast pool of experience which surely but subtly changes our state of mind, thinking and opinions. Oh there are some exceptions ofcourse, who never deviate from their beliefs, routines and opinions. But I think even they stay strong in their beliefs  or routines because every new knowledge is processed and discarded in favo…

Confessions 13 - Selfish

Did you ever imagine what happens when someone you love dies. When you realize that the warmth of their body will seep away before you held them one last time, the light in their eyes fade away before you saw them smiling for the last time, the beat of their heart will stop before you feel its vibration beneath your hand for that last time.
You knew it would happen someday, I knew it would happen someday .. But I never thought it will happen to us on that day, at that moment. Time being time was cruel enough to not let me even get a good bye before you left, but time being time was also kind enough to not let you suffer in pain.
It took me days to finally utter a word, months to finally breathe without pain, infinite time to spend a moment without a tear. All my energy was spent in convincing the kind offers of companionship that was not needed. After all am an independent person with a strong determined soul. I should be able to shoulder my own pain. Isn't it??!! Or so I thought…

Am fine...........

"Hi, friends, welcome to my story. Name is Sangeetha. This is the 143rd day of my hospitalization, am paralyzed from waist down and as far as the whispers go, I don't have much time left to finish paralyzing my whole .......... Sangeetha saw that her mother who was holding handycam was shedding tears silently... "Ma, what happened...???.... Ma, mamma, oh come on, don't cry......... Look at me mom... look am smiling, don't worry you will be fine.... " and she smiled at her mom encouraging her to do the same. When her mother gave the most insincere smile of the world, she said in a soothing voice.  "Okay, close the handycam and come sit by me. We will finish recording after sometime. Now you tell me the story of how you met dad again." Sujatha smiled back to her only daughter and she stopped recording, when she closed the screen the camera was blinking 7:43 a.m. Exactly One year later....................... at 7:43 a.m. Sujatha was standing near the kitche…